19/12
It’s our 16th Monthsarry. Hafiz bought a slice of Choc Indulgence. Spent time together. Malam tu suddenly rasa macam period pain, towards the end ni selalunya bila baby gerak memang akan ada rasa ngilu. But this time rasa ngilu kuat but still bearable. So I just let it be.
20/12 - 21/12
Bangun2 tengok ada spotting, one two drops je. Supposedly, tanda2 bersalin, besides than contraction, lendir berdarah, water broke and baby kurang gerak. Make sure pakai pad so that you’re aware of what’s happening. Spotting ni tak sure but since dah 38 weeks, so memang kena g hosp. Tapi sempat lagi breakfast, mandi, basuh rambut, Hafiz siap pakai cantik2 katanya nak sambut Malique sebab takrasa sakit lagi so still boleh bertenang.
Terus g wad bersalin kecemasan. Daftar cakap ada spotting. Dia minta kad nikah, ic, kad fpp and buku pink. Pastu kena tunggu terus kat bilik 18 Dr nak check Vaginal Examination (VE). Hafiz kena tunggu luar. I is sad. So pack siap2 makanan and air bawa masuk. Kat dalam tu kena tunggu kat kerusi sampai nurse panggil nama.
Dr check VE dah 2-3cm. Sakit gak kena seluk ni. Asyik terangkat punggung. Dr kata jangan angkat, kena relax kan kaki. Tapi tak biasa. So mula2 agak struggling nak maintain position. Pastu g check CTG pergerakkan baby and contraction. Dia akan bagi kain pink untuk tukar and strip untuk kencing atas tu. Alhamdulillah kencing semua normal. Pastu dia suruh baring and ikat scanner kat perut, tight enough that makes you uncomfortable. Alhamdulillah, baby aktif. So tak lama pun dalam tu, around 15 mins je. Kalau tak aktif kena duduk 30 mins or 1 jam or lebih. Contraction level still zero. So far semua okay, paling sakit kena seluk je.
Mental kena kuat. Macam2 dengar. Baby nangis, mak menangis, mak menjerit.
So dapat discharged. Went for lunch, had ice cream Mcd, balik tu siap amik gambar, suddenly terus rasa contraction. Our last picture together bfr two becomes three ♥ Contraction dalam setengah jam sekali. So i thought takda apa coz still boleh tahan. Hafiz ada client pula petang tu and I had plans with Illi and Arda after maghrib tu. But then around 5.30 pm tu contraction occurred within 15 mins. Terus call Hafiz, canceled everything and rushed to the Hosp. But traveling on Friday evening after working hours is no joke. Jam teruk. Sampai Hosp around 7 ish. Daftar again, cakap contraction. This time memang dapat rasa kena tahan and bersalin harini.
Around 8 ish, VE dah 5cm, tapi still takda katil, so kena duduk tunggu. Contraction on off. Kuat lagi berjalan cari Hafiz sebab lapar. Masa tengah jalan tu tiba2 kena contraction, diri berpaut kat railing sampai nurse nampak terus amik guna wheelchair. 2 jam juga tunggu baru dapat katil.
Around 10 ish, VE dah 6cm. Masa ni dah takboleh duduk diam. Baring pun sakit. Nak makan pun susah, contraction setiap 5 mins. But make sure makan if not takda tenaga nak push. I managed to eat nasi goreng kampung and 5 biji kurma out of 7, nak makan sebiji2 tu pun seksa. Sampai at one point, around 1 ish in the morning, memang rasa nak push dah. Panggil nurse. Dia check pembukaan dah 8cm, and baby dah engage kat birth canal at -1. terus kena tolak ke labor room. Masa ni dah takboleh makan minum dah. So make sure to keep yourself hydrated bfr ke labor room. Tapi still takboleh push, diorang nak tunggu sampai 10cm juga. They say first baby diorang memang akan tunggu sampai 10cm. The most painful feeling is when you know you’re ready to push tapi still kena tahan, nak tahan dari ter-push tu yang sakit coz baby memang dah kat bawah. So letak CTG scanner kat perut, tengok heartbeat baby and level of contraction pain tu. Around 2am, memang dah gigil2. Nurse pun dengar contraction pain kat mesin tu makin naik, dia tanya awak memang nak push ke? I said YES! Tak boleh tahan dah. Check pembukaan still 8cm. Terus panggil Dr. Dr pecahkan air ketuban and tengok mungkin baby dah kencing dalam tu, so memang kena push. I told you I am ready to push since 1 am tadi. Thankfully, tak nangis, I tried to reserve all the energy left in me, focussed on one thing: to push. Hafiz tolong selawat kat telinga, dengar nurses ajar breathing and push when contraction occurred. Since pembukaan still 8cm, so they had to do episiotomy, plus first baby memang usually they will perform episiotomy. About 20 mins later, Alhamdulillah Harraz Malique was born with normal delivery at 220am, on the 21st of December, weighed 3.18kg, 53cm height. I dont know how to explain the relieved feeling masa they pulled Malique out, together with tali pusat yang quite heavy. Perut terus rasa lega and kempis. I didnt know what happened masa tu, apa diorang buat, just rasa sakit and tiba2 lega je. Hafiz saw everything, so when they pulled Malique out tu Hafiz terus nangis. Diorang letak kejap Malique on me, the first sentence i said was “Handsomenya anak mak ♥” then they had to take Malique to check his condition and bersihkan dia terus since dia dah kencing dalam kantung. So i only got to hold him for awhile. Then they jabbed me ubat kecutkan rahim and pain relief for jahitan, jahit luka (3 layers) tapi tak rasa sakit just rasa geli2 ngilu, i guess pain relief tu quite strong then they check ada darah beku left tak. After all that, Hafiz bawa g toilet untuk bersihkan diri and pakaikan pampers. Terketar2 jalan, darah mengalir2. Then Hafiz bought some porridge and chocs to fill in bfr warded. Everything happened in a split seconds. So you dont really feel any pain that is worst than contraction. They brought Malique in, Hafiz azan and iqamat kan, dia diam je. Best feeling ever ♥ then I was told to give him his first penyusuan: Colostrum milk.
Petang tu, Dr datang nak check whether jahitan intact tak, and darah beku where they put one finger in and see if its darah beku or just darah nifas. Alhamdulillah semua okay. Malique pun normal, so esok dapat discharge.
22/12
Malique got his BCG and Hepatitis B injection. Nangis for a second sebab terkejut then tidur balik. He’s such a good boy ♥ Dr datang lagi check jahitan and darah beku. Boleh discharged dah. Siap dengan orientation and free gifts. Overall, Hosp Sg Buloh ni best, nurses semua friendly, makanan sedap and you’re well treated.
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Yours truly,
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